Putting on The Brakes For The One I Love
Looked over at the “Wifey Poo” the other night and saw the beginnings of a frown forming on the side of her mouth and decided it was time to put the brakes on the push….push…..push…..that is this years retail holiday season on ebay.
The Push…push….push mentality is like riding a bike. All it takes is getting back on and the ghost of yesterdays past rides again like the wind. That said, I’m certainly not in the same “fighting shape” I was when I spent year after year riding the retail bike that was the meat industry. Who knows, I may never be in that type of “lean mean” retail fighting-machine shape again.
And don’t get me wrong about the wife; she’s tougher than me in many ways and trusts enough in me not to pester me. In return I give her unasked for authority over everything I do.
It’s a relationship started over 30 years ago when she was 16 and I was 18 years old. Janet was my first real girl friend. We’ve been married now for 28 years and I will allow no one to push her past where I know in my heart she is able to go, not even me.
My foremost concern before casting off on my ebay adventure was Janet. Will she retain the tender blossom of her personality that I married and have gown to adore, if I expose her to the full force and strain that will inevitably be felt from the birth pangs of my life-long selfish dream?
I am under no self-delusion. This is my dream not Janet’s. She would much preferred I continued to make the “big-jack” I was making as a Medical Device Sales Representative than cast aside that comfort and financial security for something she didn’t need or want.
But love loves because that’s what love is and that’s what love does. Love doesn’t run calculations to discover the return on its investment or ask permission to make sacrafices for the object of its affection. I’m blessed to be the focus of so pure a love.
Some of us have a natural ability to give unconditional love more than others.
As many talents as I believe I possess I haven’t one tenth Janet’s willingness to love unconditionally, and I would trade all my inner-drive for her natural willingness to love no matter what the cost.
This world would be a far more beautiful and peaceful planet if it were populated with six billion more people just like Janet.
But so far so good! Janet gets a full dose of “yours-truly’s” passionate rantings each day and she’s starting to “believe-in” and see the future possibilities opening up before us.
It’s Wednesday around 7:00PM. The family is coming home from back east on Saturday and the Christmas tree is not up, decorations aren’t hung and I haven’t purchased a present for Janet yet.
It’s time to “lay it down” and in the words of a great Italian “fa-gidda-bout-it”.
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